This will be the second year that dad has not been available on Father's day. It makes me sad when  this day comes along, there were many years when we could have celebrated more, honored more, and made the day more special for Dad. However, one probably should not look back and get concerned about what could have been. As the saying goes, when life gives you a kick, make surre it kicks you forward. Dad certainly lived his life a lot like that, yes he did worry at times, moreso when he was full time farming. However when he retired and started receiving his pensions, a very nice calm and peace settled over him. He really did enjoy this time in his life, his concerns were few, and of course because he and Mom had very good health, this was another positive. He did show some concern when Rene was carrying the twins and their birth, he also had some concerns when Jake came into the world a little early. I was amazed at how much Dad knew about children, he knew when the various changes in their lives should occur, like walking, and so on. Dad was a very good father, grandfather and great grandfather. He also readily accepted the role of surrogate father from time to time when friends, relatives and acquaintances needed fatherly advice, he was quite proud when people came to him for his take on a situation. It is very nice to have had him as a role model, and I try to remember and celebrate that blessing rather than feeling sad, I just need to remind myself a few times a day.